"Writings of one Conflicted"

Archive for January, 2012

Poetry: Game of Life

It’s like the spinning Roulette
The uncertainty of where that ball may land
Place your bets, place your bets
Will it be red, or black; even or odd; what number shall we see?
Today will it be our gain, or our loss?

Remember the lessons of yesterday
Apply them to the future
Who are we to complain if we never learn?

The 32 pieces upon a checker pattern board
Divided into two factions of 16
Black against White
White against Black
A battle of wits which soon shows it’s true face

Never giving in to Despair
Always looking up
Take the time to think upon your actions
What is it that you see upon your own reflection?

Cards upon the table
A game of one where a single mistake can lead to your end
But even without mistakes
The shuffle doomed you from the start

Yet never yielding to defeat
The continuation of life
Something which can never be stopped
Many may die, but many more yet still live
Ultimately, death will never prevail in the constant war

Upon the hexagram star
Differing colors upon its points
The race to the other side, who will win it?

The directions we take
The choices we make
Which will lead us to our goal?
Which will lead us away?

Upon a map, the symbolic pieces are placed
Roll your dice in attack
Roll your dice to defend
To dominate it all is your goal
A toned down simulation of the enemy of peace

Even when the odds are against you
Never give in
One who knows not what it is to Give up
Determination is a force to be reckoned with

So rise up from where you stand
Take your vision, and make it known
With ambition unlike any other bring in the realization of a dream

The spinning wheel, which slows and finally comes to a stop
The result is final
A battle of wits, finally ends
Check mate
The missing card shows it’s face
And the bridge to victory is built
The final stone finds it’s place on the other side
A victory, well earned
Upon the map, the final territory is taken
Domination of the map is taken

The game of life, will never ends
So live the life you have, have no regrets
For every mistake is a lesson to be learned

In the end when the final domino has fallen
Let the trail it has left behind be long and well worn
For future generations to learn from

Always remembering that, even though we may fall
Life will never end


Poetry: Surreal Reality

Surreal Reality
When the lines between Dreams and Reality become blurred
Just release it all
When your actions become nightmares
When your thoughts become exposed
That’s when you’re identity is lost

The blurred haze of smoke
Invisible lines wavering in the air
A heat unlike any other
Does your vision fail you?

Just beyond your reach
Lies that which cannot be obtained
But, what it is, who can tell?

Surreal Reality
Embrace it with open arms
When the line between Dreams and Reality become blurred
Who can tell what is true and false?
Question it, question it all
Seek to inquire, but seek for what?

Become lost in the Smoke
Find your way through the heat
But never mind, if you don’t want to play the game
Just let it go, and wake from sleep
Surreal Reality
The tears induced from Ashen Fog
A burning sensation
The Line between Dreams and Reality become Blurred
What is there to do, in the Surreal Reality?


Poetry: White Melancholy

The melancholy which surrounds us doesn’t leave
Trapped in that small white room
With only that window of thick glass to look out of
Rain, gently tapping against it
Running fast, running slow, down against it
Outside, there’s nothing much to see
Just a lone tree, to the side of small stone road
Rid of all it’s leaves, looking naked in the emptiness outside
Surrounded by blades of white grass, which scatter themselves so easily
Above, grey skies looking down on the world below
As it releases it’s tears which it’s held in
Below, a thin layer of fog covers the very ground
Making it seems as if everything was simply floating above it
The vast scenery with only a lone tree standing out from the rest
The vast scenery, distorted, seen only through drops of rain

Inside that small white room
The very same melancholy which is felt outside
A small square room, painted completely in white
A perfect cube, with the smoothest of walls
Inside, the only thing to disturb its order
A small window, with the thickest of glass
Allowing one to view the outside world, as it passes by
Inside this small white room
There is no door, there is only the window
Which cannot be opened…
Inside this Room there is only the two of us

Two people dressed completely in white
Who spend their days
Huddled together, looking out
With melancholic eyes
Hands pressed against the glass
As if to try and feel the rain drops

Spend our Days in Melancholy
Like a Drug that’s in our minds
The days pass by
and someday
Only Memories will Remain


Poetry: Ashen Dream

Hey, tell me what is that you see
Do the skies shed tears of blood?
With that backdrop of ashen skies
Who can tell it, when the rain falls from the skies
As it burns your skin

Is that how things are going to be?

Just lie there underneath ashen skies
Acid Rain which falls from the unholy skies
Burning it all down
Join in with the dance of the Fires
Spreading all around

An anonymous chant
Just what is it that starts it?
The fallen dreams of those forgotten
Rise from the ashes
And burn underneath unholy skies

Volcanic Ash
Buries it all

The anonymous chant
Spreads all around
Take out your cups
And drink that which falls from unholy skies

Collapse and fall upon yourself
Writhe in despair
Join the fiery dances
Underneath Unholy Skies

Let it all be lost in Dreams
To Dreams
For Dreams

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This one is… rather dark in case you didn’t catch up on that. I’d love to read your thoughts on this one. So please drop them in. Thank you for reading.


Poetry: Once More

If you want to see who I am inside
Just take my heart and go
This will be the last time we wee each other
So please make it quick

If things just went back to the way they were
Then we wouldn’t have to part like this
So let’s take a moment and close our eyes

Remember the days that all we had was… (each other)
Just look back into that time
And tell me what it was that you felt
Then come, and tell me it was all a lie

Please just take my hand
And we can search for who we are, truly deep inside our hearts
We may not like what we find
But this is the truth w must accept
For it is who we are

So this is, what things have come to
The Haunted Past, which does not leave
I’ll take my chances and leave
With or without you by my side
So just listen, this one last time

Please remember all the times
All the memories that we share from those times so long ago
We cannot turn back time
So we must push on

Please just take my hand
Take a hold of all that you know
And never let go
Remember everything in your past
and Never forget, for memories are precious
Please just look into my eyes
Forget everything that you know
And just keep moving on
If you feel you can’t go on
I’ll always be there just to tell you
Never Give Up

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This was inspired by The Gazette’s Remember the Urge, and I actually wrote it so it goes with the melody. At the time of writing it, it seemed great, but after typing it down… it’s not really one of my favorites. Either way, hope you liked it.


04. Blood

The eighteenth poem for my challenge to myself. From the 追憶編 OST… Track 04: Blood. Please play the Music, as you read the Poem, Thank You, I hope you enjoy.

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Silent Noise
That which is heard, yet not
The repetition of a single thought
Guilty…
Guilty…
Guilty…
Blood which was spilled, but for what?

The answer which eludes, the one with a clouded mind
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It is my hope that the words contain a similar but not an exact feeling from the song. What did you get from it?


03. Alone Again

The seventeenth poem for my challenge to myself. From the 追憶編 OST… Track 03: Alone Again. Please play the Music, as you read the Poem, Thank You, I hope you enjoy.

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Singular Motion
Sweeping Sadness
The monotony of the night
Are the crickets out to sing?
Is the Moon out to show off its spectacular light?

Once someone asked
“Why do the Wolves Howl upon the Moons appearance?”

It is because they are alone
Forever left behind, by what is now, only a memory
An untold story left to tell

Singular Motion
Sweeping Sadness
The motionless night
Do the owls go out to hunt?
Do the stars come out to dance?

No…
At the end of Day
When The Night has covered the Skies
We find ourselves Alone
Lost to Dreams

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I really like how this one came out, I hope you enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it. Pay attention to that last, as chances are it’ll be appearing in future poems as well.


02. One of these Nights

The sixteenth poem for my challenge to myself. From the 追憶編 OST… Track 02: One of these Nights. Please play the Music, as you read the Poem, Thank You, I hope you enjoy.

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The sound of the night
Telling stories which are better kept hidden
But yet a truth that must be told
If only one would listen

So to silence we look to
And the strangeness creeps in
Bringing forth unease
Leading to Excitement

Only to break down in pieces once more
But perhaps…

One of these Nights
Truth will be revealed

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Finally I write a poem for the second track, after taking a long break from the challenge… all thanks to writer’s block. So with this, maybe I’ll finish up this challenge finally.


Poetry: Frozen Mortality

Stop, Freeze, that which may Die
Let go of Dreams which know no Boundries
Awaken to the Fiery Reality of Today

Stop and turn
What is it that you see?

Nothingness
Behind the layer of Ice
What is it that feel?
What is it that your vision shows you?
Know the Lies of Tomorrow…

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Born from nothing and complete motivation to just write something. Came up with a title, and went with it. What are your thoughts on it?


Song of the Week: Lovey Dovey

Finally January 2nd… You know what that means? It means T-ara’s “Lovey Dovey” MV was released, which concludes the the story started in the MV for “Cry Cry”. I was hoping I’d be able to see it yesterday, as Korea is ahead of us in time zones, but instead… I ended up falling asleep, much to my own disappointment. Either way, it doesn’t really matter I guess as I got up and saw it today, and will probably, over the course of the next few weeks, listen to the 2 Songs that were in the MV repeatedly and nonstop… as usual. Now notice how I said 2 Songs, so i one song is “Lovey Dovey”, what’s the other? “We Were in Love” by T-ara and Davichi, which is somewhat ironic as I discovered Davichi just last week. Ironically, I like this second song better, as it’s more of a Ballad, and I am more of a Ballad person… Not to say I don’t like “Lovey Dovey”. So before I type another paragraph full of “T-ara’s so awesome and I’m obsessed with them”, I’ll end this here… To understand the story more I suggest you see the “Cry Cry” PV first.  Also… almost forgot, there will be a total of 5 Music Videos for this song, which I will if I get the chance also be posting when they come out.

Pretend I posted this yesterday, Thank You.

MV:

We Were in Love MV:

Lovey Dovey Lyrics:

Translation:

It’s so cliche – again today I am alone

I’m so bored – eventually this day will
Woo~ just pass by like this

Look look, look at those passing by couples
I can love like that too but
Woo~ I’m so lonely

* Me too, Lovey Dovey Dovey Uh Uh Uh Uh
Lovey Dovey Dovey Uh Uh Uh Uh
Don’t leave me alone now
Now Lovey Dovey Dovey Uh Uh Uh Uh
Lovey Dovey Dovey Uh Uh Uh Uh
Where are you?

It’s so cold to spend a day alone
I would like it if I wasn’t alone
Woo~ I would really like it

Look look, look at me over here
Tonight’s darkness is so
Woo~ It’s so scary

* repeat

** Lovey Dovey Dovey Uh Uh Uh Uh
Lovey Dovey Dovey Uh Uh Uh Uh
I will definitely find you
Someone who will melt me, who’s been frozen for so long
Where exactly are you?

All alone all day woo~
All alone every single day woo~
The darkness is really really – without you, by myself
A day is too long woo~

* repeat

** repeat

Credit: http://pastebin.com/tx9R5UdY


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